It’s been that long since I last wrote a Top 10 Songs blog that we entered 2018 and I now have to write one for 2017. Something I hadn’t planned on. I thought I’d have the series wrapped up by November but then life took over and my love of compiling Top 10’s and writing disappeared. Temporarily, I hasten to add. It’s coming back, I can feel it.
So, 2014. What can I say about 2014?
It was, without a hint of doubt, the hardest year of my life thus far. It was my first full year as a parent.
Months and months of pretending everything was OK, smiling through the depression and the anxiety took its toll and culminated in a breakdown shortly after Christmas 2014.
Something I’ve found myself doing a lot this year is looking back on photos and videos from 2014. It makes me feel overwhelming sadness. This is because I couldn’t enjoy that first year of being a Mother. I feel robbed. I miss what I missed out on. I miss my son being a baby. There isn’t a day that goes by where I don’t wish I could go back to that year, if only for an hour, just to experience what it was like all over again. The likelihood is that I’ll never have another child, so feeling like I was robbed is compounded by that fact.
Anyway, let’s save this for another day. This is all about the music and the memories. And I don’t want it all to be morose. Besides, if I sat here and said that every day of 2014 was terrible, that would be a lie. There were some happy times.
10. Ghost – Ella Henderson
This is one of the best debut songs from an X Factor contestant. EVER.
Ella Henderson is one of the stand out X Factor contestants for me. This and ‘Missed‘ are utterly brilliant.
9. My Love – Route 94 feat Jess Glynne
This just screams Summer to me. Sitting in a beer garden, or on a beach. Beer in one hand (a fag would’ve been in the other back then). And just relaxing, listening to some summer anthems and this is an anthem for me.
I’ve been lucky enough to see Jess Glynne twice – V Festival 2016 & 2017 and she’s one of those singer that you forget has lent her vocals to so many songs. She’s absolutely superb live.
8. I Got U – Duke Dumont feat Jax Jones
Another Summer anthem. I’m listening to this whilst I look out the window and am greeted by the sight of rain. I fucking hate this country sometimes.
7. Outside – Calvin Harris/Ellie Goulding
By now you should be well versed with the fact I absolutely ADORE Calvin Harris. The man can do no wrong in my eyes. And while I’m not the biggest Ellie Goulding fan (she gets on my B cups, I can’t pinpoint why, maybe it’s that Pantene advert she does), I can’t deny, this is an ABSOLUTE TUNE.
Calvin Harris. Total FITLORD.
6. Only Love Can Hurt Like This – Paloma Faith
** UNPOPULAR OPINION ALERT **
I don’t really like Paloma Faith.
Yes, she can sing. But I’m not a fan. Dare I say it, when she’s on TV, I cringe for her a bit. Is she fake? I ask myself. Is she trying too hard? I moot. But let’s be honest here, is Paloma Faith really going to be arsed what a gobshite from Bristol has to say? Nah. Course not.
This song, however, is one of my faves. Had your heart broken? Listen to this on repeat whilst calling your ex every name under the sun and wishing them a lifetime of shit sex and venereal diseases (the last one is a joke, obvs).
5. I Will Never Let You Down – Rita Ora
** UNPOPULAR OPINION ALERT II **
I fucking love Rita Ora. I love her music. I love the way she dresses. I think she is probably one of the most beautiful women in the world. I adore her. There, I said it.
PS. Calvin Harris wrote this track. Bored of him yet?
4. Summer – Calvin Harris
Oh look who it is. Fancy seeing you here Calvin!
Were I to compile a Top 10 Calvin Harris blog, and believe me I’ve given this a huge amount of thought, I think this would be my number 1.
God I love Calvin. I think I’m going to have to tweet him to tell him. Again.
3. Eez-eh – Kasabian
Kasabian, without a shadow of doubt, are the best band I have ever seen live. I first saw them in their hometown back in 2014 and have seen them twice more since then.
Some people will say 48:13 isn’t as good as their first album. Some people will say they no longer produce decent music.
Well, I say you’re wrong. So, fuck on that!
2. Crying For No Reason – Katy B
Physically cannot listen to this song without a surge of electricity pulsing through my veins. It gives me goosebumps. It makes me reflect. It makes me feel EVERYTHING.
Katy is beyond talented. ‘Crying For No Reason’ is one of those songs that just speaks to me. Even if I do find it really hard to cry.
1. Chandelier – Sia
It’s my favourite song of all time. I physically cannot go a day without listening to it. I’ve even got every version of this song on my iTunes. The acoustic version is pure musical perfection.
Seeing Sia perform it at V Festival was one of the highlights of my life. In fact, it’s in my Top 10 Life moments. Genuinely. Probably even Top 5.
I. LOST. MY. SHIT. As evidenced in the video below.
But why do you love it so much? You might well ask.
Because it was written about me. Not literally, of course. Unfortunately, Sia is unaware of my existence, however, I’d do everything in my power to change that.
The lyrics of this song resonate with me more than any other song ever written.
It’s a piece of musical perfection.
Fuck the rain.
And now I’m to hand proceedings over to Fern who will walk us through her musical 2014. She has great taste, as you’re about to discover!
10. I’m Not The Only One – Sam Smith
9. Blame It On Me – George Ezra
8. A Sky Full Of Stars – Coldplay
7. Take Me To Church – George Ezra
6. Budapest – George Ezra
5. Say Something – A Great Big World
4. How Long Will I Love You – Ellie Goulding
3. Crying For No Reason – Katy B
2. Only Love Can Hurt Like This – Paloma Faith
1. Chandelier – Sia
Here’s a photo of myself from 2014. I chose this one because although my smile is mile wide, I know what was going on in my head in June 2014. I know what was to come.
My message is this; just because someone has a huge smile painted on their face, don’t think that smile is reflected within.